English Oh English

it have been a years since i write my last post. urm. from now on, i will try to write as much as possible in English as to improve this motherfucker languages. i don't really like to write in English. So, in my last exam i having difficulty to maintain myself in the first class and been drop to third class. i'm so pathetic right. why people find English is a easy languages? for me its really killing me. i'm a bit disappointed seeing that. my friend, please help me to improve my language and makes me to love this language. i'm not seeing this language as a fun so please change my perception.